The Son Also Rises

245 - What's the first thing you remember?

I remember Dee. I remember her making a promise.

"It's okay. I'll be here when you wake up. I'll be right here."

Really, I only half-remember that. It was like the very last thing that happens in your dream, just before you start to actually wake up, an echo of whatever it was that was on your mind when your conscious thoughts aren't around to filter and rationalize and compensate. I remember her promising to be there when I woke up.

( Wake-up call )

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244 - "That's something I think is growing on me as I get older: happy endings." -- Alice Munro

It isn't the way Lee Adama imagined it would happen

( The End )

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9.C.5. - "Life is a series of collisions with the future; it is not the sum of what we have been, but what we yearn to be." - Jose Ortega y Gasset

Lee Adama doesn't know who he is; more importantly, Lee Adama doesn't know who he wants to be.

Believe me, I've been hearing those criticisms my entire life. And frankly, there are all kinds of reasons that any decent head shrinker would assign to my particular personality flaws, and don't think I haven't been tempted to actually talk to one. I know I'm frakked up sometimes, and it's not like the Gods don't mind reminding me.

Captain. Lieutenant. Captain again. Major. Commander. Major again. Civilian. Attorney. Delegate. President.

I haven't missed it. I've been wandering, looking for an anchor point, trying to find the one thing or one person around which I can start to really define myself and my life, the way the human fleet has been wandering, trying to find Earth, someplace to call our own again so that we can start rebuilding a civilization.

But what have I found?

It's not duty. No matter how good a pilot I might have been, no matter how good a CAG or XO or even CO I might or might not have been, it got clearer to me with each passing day that I wasn't destined to wear a uniform forever. And it isn't Kara. There's a love there that can't really be explained, but it's not something you make a life out of. It isn't Dee, although it probably should have been.

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And then there's Sharon. It can't be Sharon. There's more than frakking going on here, I'm not stupid enough to not realize it. But I don't know what it is, and that can't be. I think I might finally be closing in on a life I can call my own, and I can't let it fall out of control. Even if, around her, that's what I want to be.

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Hey, all. Just a note to let people know that due to a temporary increase in work duties (read: the other technician is gone for a couple of weeks on vacation/training), my effective online time will be greatly reduced, so my active muses are going on hiatus for at least that period of time. Thanks.

Cross-posted to my other muse journals, so apologies for repeats.

Heya. Well, how about that "finale", huh? In thinking about the events of them (as some of you know), I came to the conclusion that I was not interested in spending the next six months or more (NEXT YEAR, PEOPLE) between now and the "second half" of season 4 with my boy Lee in a state of perpetual WTF.

With that in mind, and following in the footsteps of my partner in crime, he'll be freezing right in the middle of "Revelations", episode 4x10. That means:

1) Although Roslin and Adama have returned, Lee is still acting President
2) The treaty/partnership with the Cylons has been established, but they have yet to Jump to Earth
Etc, etc.

This freeze only affects RP and conversations. It does not include challenge community prompt responses, which will include any and all canon material up through and including the very end of "Revelations". It also does not include the storylines of bsg_tng, since it has fixed storylines not affected by the events of the last four episodes.

I know there are a few of my fellow BSG writers who might also pause their pups, but obviously, I'm not "requiring" anybody to follow suit, just letting anyone who talks to Lee know, and politely requesting that if possible, in responses, that those events not be mentioned. The poor man is usually confused enough. *LOL*

Thanks!

Thanks to number_eight for the sentiments. There's nothing better or more important than family.

230 - Black and white

I can't tell you how many times I watched it. Fifty? Way too few. Five hundred? Maybe not that many. Maybe so.

I asked one of my flight instructors once why gun camera footage was always in black and white. He said something about recording and file compression, and things you can see well in contrast. I just always thought it would be better, if you're trying to figure out what happened during a fight or review your flying, to be able to see the scene as it actually happened.

Now I'm damn glad I couldn't.

( Repeat viewings )

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228 - Three A.M.

There's not a lot of places to go on a battlestar when you can't sleep, especially when it's just before some big, important mission. I found myself on the flight deck, staring at the fighter craft I would be strapping into just a few hours from then, going on what on paper looked like a suicide mission. It involved a dozen kinds of risks, and relied on good luck way more than any War College professor would have allowed.

But then, it was Kara's plan.

( Jitters )

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226 - Name three things that you're looking forward to in the near future and why.

( Contains spoilers through episode 4x03 'The Ties That Bind' )

"You've got to be kidding me." Lee all but gaped back at his father. The weekly meeting between the CO's of the only two existing human battlestars had started out just as it had over the last few weeks since the presidential election. With the entire fleet in parking orbit around New Caprica, it wasn't as if there was a lot to discuss other than fuel supplies and resignation letters. But these new orders had thrown the younger Adama for a loop.

( Orders are orders )