First of all, I want you to know that I know what I did was wrong. And I'm not going to hide behind the Chief, or anyone else. If you honestly believe that what I did was so horrible that a brig stay is the only way to teach me a lesson, I won't fight it.
Do you have any idea what it's like to be made to feel like your worth to this ship, this crew, humanity itself, can be measured in decimal points? Wait, you're the CAG, of course you don't.
I realize we're here to discuss my actions, but they were a reaction to someone else's actions. I may not be the smartest cookie in the jar (case in point, the fact we're here today), but I'm not deaf and I'm not completely oblivious. The reason I wrote what I did was because I couldn't even eat, or sleep, or take care of my son. I know I shouldn't have let it get to me, but when you get a gun shoved in your hand and dared to shoot it, then suddenly looking down the barrel of that same gun, logic doesn't exactly win out.
I made a mistake. We've all made mistakes. Mine's more public than most and I understand that there needs to be a statement made. But someone's already used me to make a statement.
I know it seems like I'm trying to play the victim and I know that in some ways I had something coming to me. But I don't deserve to be terrorized any more than Lieutenant Agathon deserves to be slandered. She didn't mean to terrorize me? I didn't mean to slander her.
I'm truly sorry, not only for the comments themselves, but for the trouble they've caused.
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Do you have any idea what it's like to be made to feel like your worth to this ship, this crew, humanity itself, can be measured in decimal points? Wait, you're the CAG, of course you don't.
I realize we're here to discuss my actions, but they were a reaction to someone else's actions. I may not be the smartest cookie in the jar (case in point, the fact we're here today), but I'm not deaf and I'm not completely oblivious. The reason I wrote what I did was because I couldn't even eat, or sleep, or take care of my son. I know I shouldn't have let it get to me, but when you get a gun shoved in your hand and dared to shoot it, then suddenly looking down the barrel of that same gun, logic doesn't exactly win out.
I made a mistake. We've all made mistakes. Mine's more public than most and I understand that there needs to be a statement made. But someone's already used me to make a statement.
I know it seems like I'm trying to play the victim and I know that in some ways I had something coming to me. But I don't deserve to be terrorized any more than Lieutenant Agathon deserves to be slandered. She didn't mean to terrorize me? I didn't mean to slander her.
I'm truly sorry, not only for the comments themselves, but for the trouble they've caused.